Hey! I've landed safely at home safe and sound. I was very happy that I finally got home and get to sleep on my own bed. But, most importantly, I get to see wonderful family again! I love them so much! I've missed them so much! Well, I'm not here to blabber about my happiness, but, I'm here to tell you guys about the end of our very first semester.
Everyone of us from the PPISMP Tesl group is going to say goodbye to one of our guys because he is going to move to another IP for his Karate training purposes. He is one of the SUKMA athletes. So, we were quite sad at first that he was moving, but, we respect each decision that he makes and supported him. Did you know that he ranks number 1 in Sabah and number 3 in the nationals. Quite cool, huh? Want to know who he is? His name is Farlin. So, overall, we had been through one semester together. We had survived through all the rough times,happy times, so I'm happy and glad! hehe^^ well, all the best in the next semester!
Monday, 21 November 2011
Sunday, 13 November 2011
The people around me...
WHY? THROUGH ALL THIS TIME!? ALL OF MY EMOTIONS BLEND INTO DEPRESSION AND I FALL DEEP INTO IT. PEOPLE...ALL THESE PEOPLE AROUND ME... DO THEY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL DEEP DOWN INSIDE. I'VE TRIED TO BE CHEERFUL IN FRONT OF THEM, BUT, IT SEEMS LIKE I'VE FAILED TO DO SO.
I DO BELIEVE THAT MY FRIENDS LIKE ME. BUT, TODAY, MY HEART WAS TORN APART AFTER HEARING HER SAY AND HOW SHE TREATED ME. WHAT IS THE POINT OF ME BEING YOUR FRIEND THEN? AM I THAT HORRIBLE WHEN I JUST ASK YOU A QUESTION TWICE? SHE'S SO EMOTIONALLY DISTURBED. WHY DON'T JUST EXPRESS IT TO ME?
DAMN!!! MY PARENTS WERE ALSO MAD AT ME YESTERDAY! I SHOUTED AT THEM BACK AND THEN, I FELT SORRY...OH! I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT!!! NOW, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! i'M IN DEPRESSION... I CAN'T CRY, NOT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE...
I DO BELIEVE THAT MY FRIENDS LIKE ME. BUT, TODAY, MY HEART WAS TORN APART AFTER HEARING HER SAY AND HOW SHE TREATED ME. WHAT IS THE POINT OF ME BEING YOUR FRIEND THEN? AM I THAT HORRIBLE WHEN I JUST ASK YOU A QUESTION TWICE? SHE'S SO EMOTIONALLY DISTURBED. WHY DON'T JUST EXPRESS IT TO ME?
DAMN!!! MY PARENTS WERE ALSO MAD AT ME YESTERDAY! I SHOUTED AT THEM BACK AND THEN, I FELT SORRY...OH! I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT!!! NOW, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! i'M IN DEPRESSION... I CAN'T CRY, NOT IN FRONT OF EVERYONE...
Monday, 7 November 2011
Why? Me?
I don't know what to do. Should I just ignore these statements? I'm depressed and I really don't know what to do. Well, this is the only place where I can let my heart pour out its bitterness and all the tears that it has already shed.
That day, before going to class, I got a call from my mom that she accidentally rolled over my cat that morning. I was shocked over the news, I wanted to cry but these tears stayed firm in my eyes. I don't want my friends to see me crying early in the morning. Soon after, I already forgot the loss of my cat and I proceed my daily life as usual. I ignored the fact that I have lost something precious in my life.
But, today, I got a call from my mom saying that the caretaker of my old and sick grandmother quit her job and wanted to go home. I was so stressed out and I didn't know what to say on the phone with my mom. I know she's very upset in me, but, I couldn't bear it... I can't think of these things because it's really stressful... not only me, but my whole family...
My mom suffered most of the pain alone. That was what I'm afraid of. She was supposed to have an operation last month, but she postponed until the next date which she will be free without worries. My dad, he worked so hard everyday that he forgot all about the operation. I know that my mother's soul is crying out from the suffering she had been through all these years...
On the other hand, my 14 year old sister, Cassandra,was also suffering from a non-stop bleeding problem. My mom was really worried over and she can get sick over that matter...Oh God, I really don't know what to do. My family is turning upside down.
But, through it all, I tried to be strong and I told my mom to be strong, just like me. Believe in God and He will help you through it all. PRAY-That's all I can think of to help my parents and also my family...the key is-LOVE & COURAGE.
That day, before going to class, I got a call from my mom that she accidentally rolled over my cat that morning. I was shocked over the news, I wanted to cry but these tears stayed firm in my eyes. I don't want my friends to see me crying early in the morning. Soon after, I already forgot the loss of my cat and I proceed my daily life as usual. I ignored the fact that I have lost something precious in my life.
But, today, I got a call from my mom saying that the caretaker of my old and sick grandmother quit her job and wanted to go home. I was so stressed out and I didn't know what to say on the phone with my mom. I know she's very upset in me, but, I couldn't bear it... I can't think of these things because it's really stressful... not only me, but my whole family...
My mom suffered most of the pain alone. That was what I'm afraid of. She was supposed to have an operation last month, but she postponed until the next date which she will be free without worries. My dad, he worked so hard everyday that he forgot all about the operation. I know that my mother's soul is crying out from the suffering she had been through all these years...
On the other hand, my 14 year old sister, Cassandra,was also suffering from a non-stop bleeding problem. My mom was really worried over and she can get sick over that matter...Oh God, I really don't know what to do. My family is turning upside down.
But, through it all, I tried to be strong and I told my mom to be strong, just like me. Believe in God and He will help you through it all. PRAY-That's all I can think of to help my parents and also my family...the key is-LOVE & COURAGE.
On that Friday Night...
It is the night that all of us teslians had been waiting for, the Gala Night. I was so excited that day. Because it has been a long time since I went to a party like this. I can still remember it...
After classes that day, we went back to our dorms and do the things that we usually do. We took a short nap and got up around 2.30p.m. Then, we took our shower and spray our body with cologne as much as possible. We wanted to smell nice and springy fresh that day. I had my cherry blossom Eau De Toilette, from Body Shop. It smells sweet and blossomy. After that, I went to my friend's room to put on some make-up. Of course, you can't go to a party without any make-up. That's an essential for every girl. Well, since I joined the Best-Dress competition, I wanted to look my best. After everything was done and perfect, I looked at myself in the mirror. Wow! I really hope I could be "the chosen one" for that night. Well, you know, sometimes, in life I have hopes for everything. *Laugh*
At 6.30p.m, our Institute's coach bus came and took us to our destination. the Gala Night will be held at an executive Boutique Hotel names Shervinton Hotel. After reaching there, me and my friends were even more excited about the party. We went in and everyone looks glamorous that night. The guys were handsomely groomed, and duh, the ladies-stunningly gorgeous. ^^ We took our seats and got rose-shaped chocolates as a door gift. One by one, they stepped through the door, people were clapping and giving compliments to everyone on how beautiful and handsome they looked that night. After everyone had arrived, the event for that evening has started...
After classes that day, we went back to our dorms and do the things that we usually do. We took a short nap and got up around 2.30p.m. Then, we took our shower and spray our body with cologne as much as possible. We wanted to smell nice and springy fresh that day. I had my cherry blossom Eau De Toilette, from Body Shop. It smells sweet and blossomy. After that, I went to my friend's room to put on some make-up. Of course, you can't go to a party without any make-up. That's an essential for every girl. Well, since I joined the Best-Dress competition, I wanted to look my best. After everything was done and perfect, I looked at myself in the mirror. Wow! I really hope I could be "the chosen one" for that night. Well, you know, sometimes, in life I have hopes for everything. *Laugh*
At 6.30p.m, our Institute's coach bus came and took us to our destination. the Gala Night will be held at an executive Boutique Hotel names Shervinton Hotel. After reaching there, me and my friends were even more excited about the party. We went in and everyone looks glamorous that night. The guys were handsomely groomed, and duh, the ladies-stunningly gorgeous. ^^ We took our seats and got rose-shaped chocolates as a door gift. One by one, they stepped through the door, people were clapping and giving compliments to everyone on how beautiful and handsome they looked that night. After everyone had arrived, the event for that evening has started...
This is me after the beauty makeover. ^^
This is me and my friend, Nes Sandra. We took this pic. together on the IP Bus.
Me and my Besties. From the left is Nes, me, Aiifa, Echah and Eqah.
We are on the IP bus.
We took this at the Shervinton Hotel. We were hungry and still awaiting for the arrival of guests.
During the arrival of guests...
A toast to our long lasting friendship and good health!!!
Awww... Inseparable sisters...^^
This is during the best dress event.
At the end of the night, we had an enjoyable day. We took a group picture on a sofa in the hotel lobby.
After the event, we all took our pictures in the lobby. Through all the food, fashion and dance, I guess the most important thing is, we made the day special for ourselves. If all of us didn't came on that night, I'm sure lots of people will be disappointed. So, at the end of the day, these memories are made for us to remember, the moment, where all of us are now- a family. Great Job People!!!!^^
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